Monday, December 21, 2020

Morals

    You know you’re frustrated and dying to write when you’re trying to log in to your computer and end up typing in the name you’re thinking about instead of the proper password. It was just over a week ago when I came across the name Brandon Bernard for the first time. I was reading CNN’s daily “5 Things” email, and Brandon Bernard had made the list for that day. This is what I learned from CNN:

“Brandon Bernard, a federal prisoner convicted of murder for his part in the gang killing of a couple in 1999, was executed last night by lethal injection, much to the dismay of the activists who had been pleading for a stay of execution. He was the youngest person in the United States to receive a death sentence in nearly 70 years for a crime her committed when he was an adolescent, and his execution is the ninth to be carried out since Attorney General William Barr restarted federal executions after a 17-year hiatus. Bernard’s case garnered lots of attention from activists, including Kim Kardashian West, who argued against Bernard’s execution because he was a teenager at the time of the double murder, and was not the person who actually shot and killed the two victims.” 

    In addition to Kim Kardashian West, over 20 other political figures attempted to halt Bernard’s sentence as well. The various appeals made by political figures were denied at multiple court levels, including the US Court of Appeals for the District of Columbia Circuit and the Supreme Court.

    Bernard expressed remorse and a sincere apology to the family impacted by the murder. Charles Woodward, the father of one of the victims, Stacie Bagley, stated, "I pray that Brandon has accepted Christ as his Savior, because if he has, Todd and Stacie will welcome him into Heaven with love and forgiveness."

I have a lot going on inside my head about this, and the easiest way for me to effectively share this is by making a list, so here goes:

  • It is important to note that Bernard was 19 years old when he played a part in this crime. I am struggling with the fact that he remained on Death Row for twenty-one years as he awaited punishment.
  • He was not the one who had a direct role in killing the victims, so why did he pay for this crime with his life?
  • I can’t wrap my head around Charles Woodward’s statement. The fact that he is hoping that another man has accepted Christ as his savior leads me to believe that Woodward himself identifies as Christian. I understand firsthand that forgiveness is incredibly difficult, and I have no idea how hard it must have been to lose a child, especially when they are taken from you forcefully. But how, in good faith, can one just sit there and accept this outcome, this “eye for an eye” behavior when they have been taught their whole life to turn the other cheek? How can someone be content with the fact that another life will be taken in addition to the lives that have already been lost?
  • I can’t even begin to imagine the despair, rage, frustration, and anguish the Black community is feeling right now. This gives evidence of racial inequality. The highest level of the justice system, the very institution sworn to fairly and equitably uphold the rights and freedoms of all people (ALL people) is letting them down.
  • Will the same standard be held to Kyle Rittenhouse, the 17-year-old who killed three people with an AR-15 rifle in Kenosha on August 25th, 2020? Or will he be off the hook because of the color of his skin?

For those reading this, I’ve added a link below to CNN’s article on Brandon Bernard’s execution. I highly recommend reading it.

https://www.cnn.com/2020/12/10/politics/brandon-bernard-executed/index.html

Please feel free to start a dialogue with me on the points I’ve listed above. I will gladly have a respectful conversation with anyone who wants to talk about this topic.

Thanks for reading!

Saturday, December 5, 2020

Hello! Life Update

Hello, Friends and Family!

Here's a quick life update:

The school I worked at moved into full Distance Learning this week (as of this moment, we are scheduled to go back on January 4th, but who knows if that will truly happen. COVID numbers continue to be at a new all-time high every day, so.....) and it's been an interesting transition, but not horrid by any means. I am grateful and thankful that my students and I are staying safe and healthy by learning/teaching from home. 

On the other hand, by the time 3pm rolls around during the week, I am met with a nauseating and miserable sense of boredom. My afternoon/nightly routine consists of a daily walk/alternate form of exercise, dinner, a random magazine logic puzzle or two, a few chapters of a good book, then sleep. Within this last week, I have found that solo crazy dance parties or lengthy video chats with friends, even walking the halls of my apartment complex with my cat are necessary to cure my boredom. I am afraid that this won't be enough soon, and I have no idea what I am going to do. 

During last year's school year, I believed myself to be a slightly extroverted introvert, given the fact that I would come home from work and not want to interact with any other humans whatsoever at all. However, being antisocial by choice is one thing. Being required to be solely by myself and unable to get my daily dose of in-person human interaction from going into work is another thing entirely. Quarantine has caused me to realize that I am in fact equal parts introverted and extroverted (which I hear is called being an "ambivert"), and that I use to use up all my extrovert energy during the day on a normal sized class (24 young people) during the majority of the 2019-2020 school year. Now that I have smaller class sizes, as well as much more time at home to myself, my extroverted side is going crazy. 

So, if you have any ideas or recommendations on what to do to during free time, please let me know! New recipes, activities, crafts - all are welcome!

In other news, Thanksgiving was lovely; I got to see my aunt, uncle, cousins, grandpa (mom's side) and grandpa and grandma (part of my dad's side) and have a delicious meal with my parents. It was lovely to be able to spend time with all of them! 

Also, now that Thanksgiving has come and gone, I have put up a few Christmas decorations (I don't have many), and have been playing my Christmas playlist on repeat - I love the Christmas season Hopefully we get a good snowfall before Christmas Day; I do appreciate a white Christmas...!

I hope you all are staying safe, healthy, and busy! I wish you the best and a fabulous holiday season! I cannot WAIT for New Year's!!!

Rachel

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