Wednesday, January 6, 2021

A Day of Infamy, Sedition, and Terror

In retrospect, I wish I had saved the Shakespeare quote and used it for this post. It would have been just as fitting. 

I cannot describe the dread I felt during the middle of my workday when I looked down at the words written in the Buzzfeed notification my phone had pinged at me. My first thought was, “There’s no way. No one in their right mind…” But it was true. A group of Trump supporters were essentially breaking into the U.S. Capitol to protest the democratic process that was taking place.

Just to provide clarity, the definition of democracy as stated by the Merriam-Webster dictionary is as follows: “1a. government by the people; 1b. a government in which the supreme power is vested in the people and exercised by them directly or indirectly through a system of representation usually involving periodically held free elections.” To put it simply, we (the citizens of this country) elect the people who represent us. We vote, and whichever candidate gets more votes wins that election fair and square. Fair. And. Square.

Sometimes a candidate that I did not vote for or support will win. Sometimes a candidate I did support and vote for will win. Either way, the results are fair, because the winner is the one who received the most support. I will respectfully and good-naturedly accept that result and move on, while still supporting and upholding the beliefs and morals that I hold true.

Because of this sentiment, I could not wrap my head around the reasoning for the actions of the so-called “patriotic” protestors who infiltrated the United States Capitol this afternoon. Yes, I am aware that the current commander in chief of this country was sowing seeds of distrust and opposition in his supporters regarding the validity of the election process, so I suppose the events of today are not terribly surprising. But I had thought the American people, the citizens of this country, of the United States, were better than this. Instead, what occurred at the location of the Legislative Branch was “an attack on America”, and U.S. Representatives were “instructed to lie down on the floor and put on [their] gas masks” (quoted from Dan Kildee's Twitter page) while the House Chambers were bombarded by protestors.

Meanwhile, the president sat in the oval office and watched it all unfold, tweeting, “I am asking for everyone at the U.S. Capitol to remain peaceful. No violence! Remember, WE are the Party of Law & Order – respect the Law and our great men and women in Blue. Thank you!” It wasn’t until hours later, after one woman suffered a gunshot wound, many of his supporters vandalized the capitol, and countless congresspeople, as well as President Elect Joe Biden, called for Trump to call off the protestors that he finally posted another tweet, saying:

“These are the things and events that happen when a sacred landslide election victory is so unceremoniously & viciously stripped away from great patriots who have badly and unfairly treated for so long. Go home with love & in peace. Remember this day forever!”

He also made a video from the White House, which included the following message:

“You have to go home now. We have to have peace. We have to have law and order. We don’t want anyone hurt. We love you. You’re very special and I know how you feel.”

This message is problematic in countless ways. Firstly, he did not get a “landslide majority” of the votes stripped away from him. He simply lost. Secondly, how exactly have his “great patriots” been treated badly and unfairly? Please do explain, because I do not understand. Did they get pinned to the ground while a police officer kneeled on the back of their neck for 8 minutes? Did they get shot in the chest while reaching for their driver’s license? Did they get murdered in their own home in the dead of night? No? Didn’t think so.

Thirdly, these very much are not “the things and events that happen” because of the results of an election. How DARE you tell vandals and terrorists to go home with love and in peace? How DARE you normalize this behavior of hate and violence. You are a spoiled little boy in a grown man’s body throwing a temper tantrum because you lost the game after cheating for so long. Grow up.

And to people like this woman (whose identity will remain anonymous), who say, “The people are angry. Nobody’s listening to us, Republicans or Democrats. We’re Trumpers.” Fine. You don’t have to like that your candidate lost. No one likes it when their candidate loses. But you don’t see the rest of us flipping tables and throwing the chess pieces all over the floor; we accept the loss with grace. The way in which you used your voice so that people “listened to you” was through your vote; the other team simply cheered louder.

This country’s political system is not something you can just physically and harmfully rage against when things don’t go your way. It is an organized system in which everyone’s opinion is considered. It may be flawed, but this unprecedented attack on it is simply inappropriate and unnecessary. If you want change, start a petition or create a bill and send it to congress. Act like an adult. Try teaching your fearless leader a thing or two about what it means to be an American.

Friday, January 1, 2021

Hell is empty, and all the devils are here.

In my last post, I shared information regarding the case of Brandon Bernard, a Black man who received the death penalty and was executed via lethal injection at 9:27pm on December 10th, 2020. May he rest in power. 

The date of his execution happened almost a month ago already; it seems scarily unbelievable that almost that much time has passed already. What is even more scary is that, just over a month after the government approved and officiated death of two African American males (Bernard and Alfred Bourgeois) in December, a third is set to be executed on January 15th, just five days before President Elect Joe Biden is to be sworn into office. 

Dustin John Higgs is charged with the kidnapping and murder of three females in January of 1996. Just as was the case with Brandon Bernard, Higgs was not the person who killed the victims (Tamika Black, Tanji Jackson, and Mishann Chinn). The man responsible for their death is Willis Haynes, who "pleaded guilty to shooting the three victims" and stated that “the prosecution’s theory of our case was bullshit. Dustin didn’t threaten me. I was not scared of him. Dustin didn’t make me do anything that night or ever.” Haynes was sentenced to life in prison without parole, while Higgs will be sentenced to death on Martin Luther King Jr's birthday for a crime he did not commit. 

Let me say that again: The perpetrator responsible for the triple murder will spend his life in prison, while an innocent Black man will be killed for no reason on the birthday of a historical figure who fought and died for him to have equal rights and freedoms in this country

I am angry; the very institution sworn to protect our lives and liberty is picking and choosing who they deem worthy; the message this sends to the African American people is unacceptable. I will continue to be angry, but I refuse to sit around and do nothing. 

Below I have put several links and a description above each one. Please read and educate yourself more about this issue. Dustin himself has been actively trying to promote his horrid situation; PLEASE sign his petition if you do nothing else!


Dustin's Petition:

https://www.change.org/p/president-of-the-united-states-wrongly-convicted-savedustinjhiggs-com-help-me-change-the-narrative?utm_content=cl_sharecopy_23074696_en-US%3A1&recruiter=1124020166&utm_source=share_petition&utm_medium=copylink&utm_campaign=share_petition&utm_term=petition_dashboard


Dustin's Website:

http://www.savedustinjhiggs.com/ 


Dustin's Official Clemency Petition to the President:

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1tcILPcHeP8MNOgwemxfqrDL5kzRm-4zA/view 


An article I quoted above:

https://www.thedailybeast.com/this-is-the-last-man-due-to-be-executed-by-the-trump-administration 

Monday, December 21, 2020

Morals

    You know you’re frustrated and dying to write when you’re trying to log in to your computer and end up typing in the name you’re thinking about instead of the proper password. It was just over a week ago when I came across the name Brandon Bernard for the first time. I was reading CNN’s daily “5 Things” email, and Brandon Bernard had made the list for that day. This is what I learned from CNN:

“Brandon Bernard, a federal prisoner convicted of murder for his part in the gang killing of a couple in 1999, was executed last night by lethal injection, much to the dismay of the activists who had been pleading for a stay of execution. He was the youngest person in the United States to receive a death sentence in nearly 70 years for a crime her committed when he was an adolescent, and his execution is the ninth to be carried out since Attorney General William Barr restarted federal executions after a 17-year hiatus. Bernard’s case garnered lots of attention from activists, including Kim Kardashian West, who argued against Bernard’s execution because he was a teenager at the time of the double murder, and was not the person who actually shot and killed the two victims.” 

    In addition to Kim Kardashian West, over 20 other political figures attempted to halt Bernard’s sentence as well. The various appeals made by political figures were denied at multiple court levels, including the US Court of Appeals for the District of Columbia Circuit and the Supreme Court.

    Bernard expressed remorse and a sincere apology to the family impacted by the murder. Charles Woodward, the father of one of the victims, Stacie Bagley, stated, "I pray that Brandon has accepted Christ as his Savior, because if he has, Todd and Stacie will welcome him into Heaven with love and forgiveness."

I have a lot going on inside my head about this, and the easiest way for me to effectively share this is by making a list, so here goes:

  • It is important to note that Bernard was 19 years old when he played a part in this crime. I am struggling with the fact that he remained on Death Row for twenty-one years as he awaited punishment.
  • He was not the one who had a direct role in killing the victims, so why did he pay for this crime with his life?
  • I can’t wrap my head around Charles Woodward’s statement. The fact that he is hoping that another man has accepted Christ as his savior leads me to believe that Woodward himself identifies as Christian. I understand firsthand that forgiveness is incredibly difficult, and I have no idea how hard it must have been to lose a child, especially when they are taken from you forcefully. But how, in good faith, can one just sit there and accept this outcome, this “eye for an eye” behavior when they have been taught their whole life to turn the other cheek? How can someone be content with the fact that another life will be taken in addition to the lives that have already been lost?
  • I can’t even begin to imagine the despair, rage, frustration, and anguish the Black community is feeling right now. This gives evidence of racial inequality. The highest level of the justice system, the very institution sworn to fairly and equitably uphold the rights and freedoms of all people (ALL people) is letting them down.
  • Will the same standard be held to Kyle Rittenhouse, the 17-year-old who killed three people with an AR-15 rifle in Kenosha on August 25th, 2020? Or will he be off the hook because of the color of his skin?

For those reading this, I’ve added a link below to CNN’s article on Brandon Bernard’s execution. I highly recommend reading it.

https://www.cnn.com/2020/12/10/politics/brandon-bernard-executed/index.html

Please feel free to start a dialogue with me on the points I’ve listed above. I will gladly have a respectful conversation with anyone who wants to talk about this topic.

Thanks for reading!

Saturday, December 5, 2020

Hello! Life Update

Hello, Friends and Family!

Here's a quick life update:

The school I worked at moved into full Distance Learning this week (as of this moment, we are scheduled to go back on January 4th, but who knows if that will truly happen. COVID numbers continue to be at a new all-time high every day, so.....) and it's been an interesting transition, but not horrid by any means. I am grateful and thankful that my students and I are staying safe and healthy by learning/teaching from home. 

On the other hand, by the time 3pm rolls around during the week, I am met with a nauseating and miserable sense of boredom. My afternoon/nightly routine consists of a daily walk/alternate form of exercise, dinner, a random magazine logic puzzle or two, a few chapters of a good book, then sleep. Within this last week, I have found that solo crazy dance parties or lengthy video chats with friends, even walking the halls of my apartment complex with my cat are necessary to cure my boredom. I am afraid that this won't be enough soon, and I have no idea what I am going to do. 

During last year's school year, I believed myself to be a slightly extroverted introvert, given the fact that I would come home from work and not want to interact with any other humans whatsoever at all. However, being antisocial by choice is one thing. Being required to be solely by myself and unable to get my daily dose of in-person human interaction from going into work is another thing entirely. Quarantine has caused me to realize that I am in fact equal parts introverted and extroverted (which I hear is called being an "ambivert"), and that I use to use up all my extrovert energy during the day on a normal sized class (24 young people) during the majority of the 2019-2020 school year. Now that I have smaller class sizes, as well as much more time at home to myself, my extroverted side is going crazy. 

So, if you have any ideas or recommendations on what to do to during free time, please let me know! New recipes, activities, crafts - all are welcome!

In other news, Thanksgiving was lovely; I got to see my aunt, uncle, cousins, grandpa (mom's side) and grandpa and grandma (part of my dad's side) and have a delicious meal with my parents. It was lovely to be able to spend time with all of them! 

Also, now that Thanksgiving has come and gone, I have put up a few Christmas decorations (I don't have many), and have been playing my Christmas playlist on repeat - I love the Christmas season Hopefully we get a good snowfall before Christmas Day; I do appreciate a white Christmas...!

I hope you all are staying safe, healthy, and busy! I wish you the best and a fabulous holiday season! I cannot WAIT for New Year's!!!

Rachel

Sunday, October 18, 2020

"A Hot Mess, Inside a Dumpster Fire, Inside a Train Wreck"

 Wow. Just. WOW. 

That...was some utter nonsense. I know this post is a bit late in coming, but I needed a while to process, so thank you for your patience. I took 22 pages of notes between the two - how shall I put it? - lively debates that have happened thus far, and it took a while to figure out exactly what specific things I  wanted to write about here. 

The list below contains quotes that stood out to me the most from the Presidential and Vice Presidential debates. It is in no particular order, but I did my best to make it chronological. The quotes of the Presidential and Vice Presidential candidates are in blue, while the comments in orange with parentheses are what you would have heard me say, had we been watching it together:

  • Trump (to Biden): “Did you use the word smart? So, you said you went to Delaware State, but you forgot the name of your college. You didn’t go to Delaware State. You graduated either the lowest or almost the lowest in your class. Don’t ever use the word ‘smart’ with me. Don’t ever use that word. Because you know what, there’s nothing smart about you, Joe. 47 years, you’ve done nothing." (Only a bully puts others down to make themselves feel better. This is a personal attack. Show some professionalism and respect!)
  • Trump (about Biden): “I don’t wear a mask like him. Every time you seen him, he’s got a mask. He could be speaking 200 feet away from me, and he shows up with the biggest mask I’ve ever seen!" (Firstly, karma. Secondly, nice job scoring points for your opponent by calling out his conscientious choice to protect his constituents and the people around him. Please continue; I will cheer you on from the sidelines.)
  • Trump (on racial sensitivity training): “Oh, it’s totally racist. (Racial sensitivity trainings are not racist. And if people THINK they are, then those trainings are not being taught properly!) If you were a certain person, you had no status in life, it was sort of a reversal. (What are you going on about???) And if you look at the people we would pay people hundreds of thousands of dollars to teach them very bad ideas (OH REALLY.) and frankly, very sick ideas (these teachers aren’t the ones with the sick ideas, pal!) and really, they were teaching people to hate our country. (Our country has its fair share of issues, dude. Denial about that fact helps NO ONE.)  And I’m not gonna do that. I’m not gonna allow that to happen. We have to go back to the core values of this country. They were teaching people that our country is a horrible place, it’s a racist place, and they were teaching people to hate our country. (Have you ever even picked up a history book?) And I’m not going to allow that to happen.
And the most memorable exchange:

Pence: "I would like to go back."

Moderator: "I think we need to move on –"

Pence: "Well, thank you, but I would like to go back. (SIR. WOULD YOUR MOTHER PUT UP WITH THIS ATTITUDE? NO? THEN SIT DOWN.) Because the reality is that we’re going to have a vaccine in record time, in unheard of time. In less than a year. (For real? So, all the companies creating them are spreading false info about the timeline of availability? Ok, great! Can’t wait! You go first, sir!) [to Kamala] The fact that you continue to undermine public confidence in a vaccine [Kamala said she wouldn’t get a vaccine if the Trump Administration recommended it, only if health officials did] if the vaccine emerges during the Trump Administration I think is unconscionable. And senator, I just ask you stop playing politics with people’s lives.” (OH, HE WENT THERE. OH, MY GOODNESS. THE AUDACITY. You wanna talk about ‘playing politics with people’s lives’? Let’s have a conversation, you twat.)

Other important speculations:

 Biden made a point to look at the camera when he answered questions, which gave the appearance of talking to the people at home who were watching. Trump did not speak as much to the camera/audience, but rather to Biden and Wallace.

Both Presidential candidates called the other a liar at least once during the debate.

- My students do a better job realizing they’ve interrupted someone, apologizing, and allowing them to finish speaking than the President or VP. And they certainly don’t make anyone feel bad about it.


Hopefully this post provided you with a bit of a laugh during this madness. While I find it important to stay woke in order to avoid being a compliant bystander, it is also important to find things that bring a smile to your face! Balance is key. 


Lastly, I want to share two quick recommendations: 

1. If you have not yet seen the film Thirteen, I HIGHLY recommend adding it to your Netflix list and watching it as soon as possible. 

2. Demi Lovato released an amazing song last week called Commander in Chief. Here is the link for the music video; please check it out!: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n9Y-lS1trhw 


DON'T FORGET TO VOTE!!!

Saturday, September 19, 2020

"Life is pain, Highness. Anyone who tells you differently is selling something."

Denial is a dangerous thing.

It enables you to turn a blind eye and makes your brain numb. 

There have been countless unknowns that have not been resolved in my life because of COVID (which I'm sure is true for everyone), and instead of facing these problems head-on, my mind let them go. I am not sure why, how, or at what point this denial-like way of thinking began, but my realization about its occurrence felt akin to coming home after an amazing vacation: that moment on the last day of sightseeing when you realize that tomorrow you'll be on the plane ride home where your life, your job, and your normal routine are waiting for you. It totally brought me back down to earth. And then I was ashamed. 

I was ashamed because I had been hearing but not listening when my friends and family were telling me about their worries and concerns, which are worries and concerns that I need to be considering as well. I had been nodding my head to what they had been saying, but only partially comprehending the words. It had been something that I was not conscious of, like my mind was trying to protect me from a massive overload of emotion and pain. My re-awareness felt exactly the same way it did when George Floyd was murdered; I feel woke once again, and I need to stay woke.

Staying woke isn't something that just happens without effort. It's a constant decision to pick a side, to make change, to be heard, to not remain silent. Silence, while comfortable and easy, only perpetuates a problem. Staying woke means to engage and be alert to conflict in order to promote change. While extremely important, this is often not without pain. And that pain can be hard to handle. The following quote from Peter Capaldi best summarizes how to cope with pain during difficult times: 

    "You know what you do with all that pain? Should I tell you where you put it? You hold it tight. till it burns your hand. And you say this, "No one else will ever have to live like this. No one else will ever have to feel like this. Not on my watch.""

I haven't been holding the pain close because I don't want my hand to burn anymore. It feels charred, black and flaking, burnt to a crisp. It's much more of an immediate relief to let that pain go and forget about it. But if I do, I am in danger of being responsible for increasing the pain of others. What consequences will others face if I fail to hold on to the pain and use it as a reminder? If I don't face the unknowns and at least try to solve them, what catastrophes could arise? Not only for me, but for my colleagues? The young people I am responsible for?

I'd rather not find out. Time to reel the pain back in and carry on.

Monday, July 13, 2020

For the People? Nah.

It was Abraham Lincoln who spoke the phrase, "of the people, by the people, for the people," in his famous Gettysburg Address. In this section of his speech, he was referencing the strong, dependable government that would unite and support all American citizens. 

Look how far we have come; "of the people, by the people, for the people" feels like a broken promise. 


If you were "for the people", you'd care more about the well-being of your citizens than the well-being of the economy. 

If you were "for the people", you wouldn't be forcing and pressuring the 3.7+ million teachers in America to decide whether to sacrifice their health or their career.

If you were "for the people",  I would not be worried about my health because I was required to return to work as case numbers rose. 

If you were "for the people", schools wouldn't have template letters for the death of a student or teacher prepared for the coming school year. 

If you were "for the people", the fatality rate would likely be exponentially lower. 

If you were "for the people", you wouldn't be shaming educators about going back to into their workplace. 

If you were "for the people", I wouldn't have felt compelled to make a health care directive at age 25.

If you were "for the people", I wouldn't feel expendable.

If you were "for the people", I would feel safe.

I'm ready to be reminded what a government that is "for the people" is like. 

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